Why must I do the things I do. I always think befor I act. But not even that seems to work out well for me. It all depends. I keep riding this roller coaster, called life. I want to jump off of it. Or atleast slow it down and leveled out right. You can bitch, and vent about life all you won't too, but words are cheap. I'm just going to go the rest of this month, which is not really much of this month left , with out trying to pursue a friendship, or any type of relationship. actually I'm going to do that for awhile. I want to see what comes in stores for me. I was acting like that for a lil while, met a nice person and then like wise, I'm the one trying to keep a relationship. (which to me keeping a relationship is contacting them, and pursueing to see them? idk. I'm too much of a romantic and the type of person who gets run-the-fuck-over all the time.) I'm not going to get played or lied to anymore...cause it just puts me in the most zonked fucked up mood, and no one likes thos moods. (I'm a sensitive person, don't show it tho, atleast try not to...unless I'm drunkkk. ) well. just making a few new changes, lets see how this goes.